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I guess this song really sums up how i'fe been feeling for a while. Best thing is i didn;t know what the hell the guy was singing about till much latter. Oh well such is life.
HEY THERE LONELY GIRL
Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl
Let me make your broken heart like new
Oh, my lonely girl, lonely girl
Don't you know this lonely boy loves you
Ever since he broke your heart you seem so lost
Each time you pass my way
How I long to take your hand
And say don't cry, I'll kiss your tears away
Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl
Let me make your broken heart like new
Oh my lonely girl, lonely girl
don't you know this lonely boy loves you
You think that only his two lips can kiss your lips
And make your heart stand still
But once you're in my arms you'll see
No one can kiss your lips the way I will
Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl
Let me make your broken heart like new
Oh, my lonely girl, lonely girl
Don't you know this lonely girl loves you
Oh my lonely girl, lonely girl
Don't you know this lonely boy loves you
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Last Letter to the one i Love
Dear Sandra, Miss Sand, SANDRAAAAAA,
When I was in Toyko I had a lot of time to think. I imagine a life with you. Of doing things so simple and mundane that many take them for granted. I guess my time away has just given me more time to think about us. I want to wash dishes with you, cook with you, hold your hand and grow old with you. But I also realize that it takes two hands to clap. To love is not something one person can tell another person to do.
I don’t believe in life being predetermined by the stars. I believe that you make your own destiny, your own fate. No one decides that for you. God has given us free choice. We choose to be who we are and what we are and who we love.
Will I ever stop loving you? No. Do I want to? Sometimes, the times when you write about your ex and how you still feel for him. I feel like such a fool, a foolish dreamer always striving for the ideal. But each and every time I see your face. I can't help but fall right back, even deeper, in love.
I guess I need some time. I need to fall in love with someone else so that we may resume our friendship without any agenda. Although we are soulmates and bandmates. I can never truely be your friend as long as I have going after you on my mind.
I know you hate being put in a spot. But I have to ask you one last time. Do you love me as well? Or do you want to let me go?
Loving you always,
Jem
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
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This is probably the best post i've ever written:
Sunday, May 04, 2003
NvRLrN SuckS ???
Woah NvRLrN got their first hate mail .... quite funny actually .. here's the flame from some guy called nvrlrnsucks:
you guys call yourself punk? i think you guys were the biggest posers. especially when your irritating bassist (writer's note: hey dats me!) went up on stage at asianbeat at youthpark and called himself and the rest of the band skater punk, emo punk and whatever crap. shut up mr bassist, you're not funny and when i recently came across your songs on mp3.com, it really confirmed you guys are just wannabes. give it up!
To base your opinions on one performance is a hallmarks of our 5 sec attention span youth ... i dun blame him lah i was like that once too ... but now i old so i dun give a damn ... bands dat i dun like i keep mouth shut and try to support all local music irregardless .... for our local scene to continue to grow we need more understanding and not have every punk kid pick a fight at every show just to show dat he's anti-establishment ....we need unity not diversity .. but unfortunately such ideals are lost on the pple who claim to be anti-establishment yet wear brand names and carry handphones .... being yourself is more important .. if you like westlife and watever good for you .. i like them too but i like the ataris and the get up kids better .... being punk has lost it's flavour ....
i see kids embracing all facets of altenative culture now ... punks, skins, breakers, mcs, goths, metalheads, j-poppers watever to each his own .... what are they gonna be in ten-twenty years time .. when they have to support themselves .. when their parents pass on or refuse to give them money ... well we'll just see how punk they are then .... most would have sold out ... the smart ones would have gotten good day jobs and practise being punk only at the odd gig ... most would have dropped out of school, gotten hooked on drugs (anti-establishment mah) and probably wind up in jail ... the lucky ones would be themselves involved in music (local or otherwise) and realise how fucked up they were last time ... well to each his/her own ....
i try not care .. but i can't .... i see myself in some of the words this kid has written and some of it is true ....
we were once punk kids ...
but we sold out to reality ...
Thursday, October 21, 2004
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I'm fucking bored at work now... Haiz....
Thursday, September 30, 2004
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I am 76% evil.
Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
Monday, August 30, 2004
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First time jitters can be bad ..
especially when you're standing in for one of the best voices in singapore .... man i screwed up badly .... i will never be a front person again ... i just don't like to be the focal person in a band ... i just like to be the bassist and sometime vocalist ... i hate it when i have to talk to the crowd or to get them going ... but that's just what i've been called upon to do on numerous occasions ... well i guess i just have to do what i have to ... at least the highlight of the day was meeting a certain someone after the gig .. yah ... that really made my day ...
anyway vote for idol number 10 on thursday or face the wrath of god ....
Come back soon daffy !!!!!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
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I never expected things to happen this way. Funny thing fate can be. WAHAHAHAHA ....
Monday, August 16, 2004
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How to not sleep.
1. Sleep till 12 pm the previous afternoon. that alway helps.
2. Vegetate the entire day in the office convincing yourself that you're doing something worthwhile.
3. Drink lots of tea because tea is the new "cool" drink of choice. Instead of "let's go for an after dinner nightcap" "kia ke lim teh" is the new in-phrase.
4. Imbibe several tablets of amphetamines aka speed, this is not recommended. (author cautions that drug abuse is illegal, fun but illegal alternatively try 5).
5. Try traditional malay drink called tonkat ali. Guaranteed to make you "stand" for the next 24 hrs.
6. Trade witty pick-up lines with the girl of your choice. Altenatively sing the whole night away.
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
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Funny how things change. I guess only the time will tell whether the decisions we make are right or wrong. Anyway today would have been my anniversary with some one special had we not broken up. but i guess everything happens for a reason and i'll not look back. i only look forward. probably one of my suckier traits. i try not to dwell on the past and having a really fucked up memory really helps in that respect. meet you today and forget your name by tomorrow. happens all the time so don't be offended if it's you i forget.
oh well off for a movie with fion hope she's feeling fine now.
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
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My dahling made me realise something yesterday ... as with all my past relationship i tend to focus too much on the physical aspect of it ... the touching, kissing, hugging etc .. and i tend to ignore my dahling when not doing the above said things ... i guess thats just a defect from all the one month flings and i have .. i've never taken a relationship beyond the touching and kissing stage .. and it scares me that that may me the only thing i know how to do .... well i'm trying to be more understanding and to reflect on what i do and to show more attention and not just watch tv and zone out or play games and zone out etc. ... she shd have my undivided attention most of the time .. heh ... i guess for the first time i really want this to work out ... and it scares me sometimes...
Monday, September 29, 2003
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I've not been blogging as usual. i guess i only blog when it's late at nite and my baby is asleep and i have nuthin better to do ... like tonite ... the pass few weeks have been positively surreal ... i've met this girl ... and now most of the day is taken up by tots of her ... now she's my baby ... and i'm the happiest guy ard ... who says fat guys can't get the girls they want !!! wahahahaha .. anyway ... been busy with boomy ... and recording and gigging on almost every weekend and watching as many as my fren's bands play as possible ... new bands that i think rock include electric co. and march twelve ... they been ard a while but i've only heard them perform the past couple of weeks ... dead end have been going from strength to strength too ... they amaze me everytime they perform ... bitch slap and kingpin rock my socks too ... and they're project bands ... woah powerful stuff .... wahahaha .. life for the moment is peachy ...
Saturday, September 13, 2003
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i am a lazy boy.
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love.
Friday, August 22, 2003
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This is what i wrote on the 18th of august ine year ago.
Today i studied for most of the day at KAP Mcs with GothDean ....... During one of our smoking breaks we came to the conclusion or rather GothDean came to the conclusion that Hamburgler is evil ....... i mean he is a career criminal .... that prays on the weak and gay .... i mean you didn't think Ronald McDonald, Hereafter referred to as faggot clown, was straight Right???? ..... i mean do you seriously think that faggot clown would let Hamburgler, hereafter known as burger bitch, off the hook so easily if burger bitch didn't give him some piak piak fun ......... it's seriously warped ..... and what about the cannibalistic fry kids ????? they fuckin eat their own kind !!!!! And Birdie is always trying to get high, if you know what i mean ........ well all i can say is thank you very much McDonald's Corp for leaving a lasting impression on the waistbands and minds of the youth of todae .......
Thursday, August 21, 2003
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wahahahaha ... so happy ... i went to guitar gallery to play my jazz bass .... it was an orgasmic experience ...
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
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Up again, sleep seems to be eluding me these past few days.... can't seem to fall asleep ... i lie on the bed with my pillow beneath my head ... my mind thinking of grandiose ideas .... thinking about the future and the past ... thinking of what life would have been had my decisions been different .... mostly thinking about whether to pick up the phone and call her...
wahahaha .... then i fall asleep .... i drift off into my own little world ... a place where i seldom get nightmares .. where my dreams are usually all right ... not necessarily nice but all rite ... then i wake up... and the today will be better then yesterday .. i will make it such .. and if it isn't there is always tomorrow ....
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With respect to my post "Relationship??? simi lai eh can eat or not???"
if you think that you're "the one" please email me at angmohkau@hotmail.com for an interview.
you must be funny, love music, tolerate but not condone smoking, laugh at my lame attempts at jokes, hold my hand when i feel lonely, kiss me when i need to feel loved, when i'm horny ........ wahahahah... like my friends (very important), give me some freedom to do my own thing, and most of all like me for who i am ... not what i am ...
in return, you can expect to be held when the world seems like a fuck up place, Heard when no one hears your cries, tickled when you're feeling down, kissed when you're feeling passionate and most of all a spot will be reserved in what others have called a cold, black place ........
my heart .....
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wahahahaha emo boh ..... more like boh liao .... fuckin integrated lab was so difficult man ... the total opposite of drug doscovery ... haiyah i want to go to guitar gallery to see all the pretty bass guitars .. i want a fender jazz bass with badass bridge and quaterpounder pick ups .... who wants to buy for me ??? i think i'll go to the wake me up shop to buy a cd of two... been supporting musical piracy for too long .. time to give some cash back to the artists ....
i think i'll probably make a great host for who wants to ba a millionaire... i've got all the catch phrases down ... i.e. is that your final answer ?? when we come back we'll see if
insert name will take it all the way ....
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Relationship??? simi lai eh can eat or not ???
I have come to the conclusion... relationships are not for me...
why?? you might say?? coz i guess i have lost faith in them... the girls that i've gone after in the past have usually left me heartbroken... in retropect i left a few of them heart broken as well... but i'm self centered.. so this is all about me... let me take you thru a typical scenario... jeremy meets girl... jeremy gets to know girl... jeremy likes girl... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... dats it... the complete inability to take it to the next step is my greatest fault... too many times has confessing my feelings done nothin but to make things complicated... well i think i will forget bout relationships then... who needs em??? they're overrated... i'm my own man ... i do what i fuckin want when i want ... i do not report to anyone... i do not have an emotional debt to pay ... i have freedom...
Yet i am lonely sometimes... when i remember the how good it was to hold a girls hand ... or tell her about the innermost workings of my soul... i have been in greater then ten relationships... i've been dating since 1996 ... not a bad average i guess ... 1.3 a year...
Relationships??? who knows??? i'm still looking for the one... maybe i've found her...
